Subtle Depression???

Been Not So Happy Lately...

I think I'm losing the writing gig
I think the new things I'm trying out are taking forever to click
I think I'm failing in my marital obligation
I think I'm not as fortified as I thought I'll be
I think I'm not smashing all my intended records
I think I've allowed fear overshadow me
I think there's a missing puzzle unidentified
I think my mind is just wandering and not at rest
I think my spiritual life is dwindling
I think I'm anxious for everything
I think I'm a shadow of myself
I think I'm losing my life

What happened to me? The shock from the sudden switch from Spinsterhood to Wifeyhood? Supernatural help... Please find me!

*The aforementioned are not subject to mental scrutiny, you'll not win. *smiles

Have a Blissful day Fam.

I've Missed You a Great Deal! Thank You For Visiting.


Isolation is the state of being detached or separated from other people.

It is true that no man is an island but there comes a time in one's life when he or she will have to isolate him or her self from the crowd, given that some people take it upon themselves to distract you from your focus and are aimed at ridiculing, oppressing and silencing you.

Joseph was isolated from his family at a particular period of time, when he was sold into slavery by his blood brothers to Egyptian merchants. From that period till the time he became the governor of Egypt, he did not have any contact with them until the appointed time.(See Genesis 37:18-36)

It was in his isolation period that he passed through several processes that edified his spirit and molded him into the perfect gentle man that served his generation.

Anchor scripture: {Mathew 14:23} "After He had sent the crowds away, He went up on the mountain by Himself to pray, and when it was evening, he was there alone.''
Every …


Who is the unequally yoked person? One who is unable to partner with you at a particular level. Failure to disassociate yourself from them will lead to sinking and eventual drowning.

Anchor Scripture: {Proverbs 27:17} "Iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another.''
Ab initio, humans were not wired to live in isolation, they were wired to have companions who will help them in their daily lives. Everyone who accrues successes at different level was helped.

Iron sharpens iron. Never been heard of that iron sharpen plastic or vice-versa, the iron will remain blunt and will be unable to operate at the realm it was designed to, while the plastic will be dissected into bitty parts.

"Do not become partners with those who do not believe, for what fellowship does light have with darkness?"(2 Corinthians 6:14- NET Bible) This Biblical portion is one to ponder upon.

Partnerships, Relationships, and Courtships are sensitive SHIPS that shouldn't accommodate the wro…


If you're not God, my quintessential spiritual director, bae or my mini-circled confidants, then I have trust issues with you!

Scriptural Passage: {1 Peter 5:8} "Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour. Resist him, steadfast in the faith, knowing that the same sufferings are experienced by your brotherhood in the world."

Lately, I've watched drama unraveled sequentially till it attained its melting point. And surprisingly, these acts were put up by people whom I thought were dear to me. 
*Screaming no more! Never letting this sanguine heart of mine fail me. Never again!
It's not okay to be rewarded evil for the good deeds done. It's not okay for a group of people to plot your downfall and pit your name for no just cause. It's not okay to be treated less than your worth. Most importantly, it's not okay to suffer for nothing especially when it is beneficial to those who don'…

Naked and Bare...

Don't be distracted by the tautological caption, but there comes a time in one's life where the individual undresses and just lay bare, with aim of offloading the luggage that comes with life's journey.

In the last three weeks, I've been somewhat depressed. Able to think straight? Mission impossible. I'm too selfless to a fault and it is the burden I bear. Being in the midst of negative people who never retire from false judgments keeps me on my feet. I'm careful not to give them the opportunity to penetrate and tamper with my peace. Come to think of it, I have an acute phobia for failure, especially the ones that come with heightened embarrassments. I pray the heavens hastily come to my rescue.

The pressure from meeting various deadlines, many commitments which I ought to get actively involved in and the overall responsibility accrued to being an adult is a torn in my flesh. I don't intend to bore you with no Mummy Tale. But up unto now, no one has been a…

Smile At Life, It Smiles Right Back At You

There's this thing they say about life. Smile at it, it smiles right back at you in return. Sometimes, life may not smile after you've flashed the first, second or numerous smiles at. Smile unrelentingly until it gets tired of upsetting you. Because it will get tired eventually.

All my life (up until now), I lived in different levels of expectations. There were times I anticipated the perfect prince charming to make my fairy tale dreams come alive, other times, I anticipated an upsurge in my career aspiration.
Were my expectations met? Yes... Nearest to yes, I think. Maybe because it took a longer time to attain unlike I imagined. Later in life, I discovered the secret: Smile at life.

Anchor Scripture: {Jeremiah 29:11}
"I have plans to take care of yourself and give you a future that you planned for

Well, It takes a renewed mind to smile at life and through life's.

The moment I began to smile at life consistently amidst its pains and gains, tasteful and distasteful e…


The human body is wired to be in a neutral state. Neutral means a relaxed state. The human body craves comfort, skin pampering and the good things of life.

Some of the recent people in my life think i'm a workaholic, if only they knew the "unrenewed'' Ella. lol. I'm a typical sanguine. My walk with the Holy Spirit made me overcome most of the weaknesses of a sanguine.

Oh well, I have my lazy days! Each time i'm in my lazy day feeling, Proverbs 6:4-11 pops up in my head and torments the hell out of me.

Anchor Scripture: {Proverbs 6:6-11}
"Go to the ant, you sluggard! Consider her ways and be wise, which, having no captain, overseer or ruler, provides her supplies in the summer, and gathers her food in the harvest.  How long will you slumber you sluggard? A little sleep, a little slumber, a little folding of hands to sleep -  So shall your poverty come to you like a prowler, and your need like an armed man.''
Imbibing self discipline to overcome la…